March 23, 2011 - No sleep and preparing for the worst

About a week ago Sydney didn’t seem interested in the cottage cheese and flax oil so I stopped giving it to her. I figured she knew better than I did whether it is helping her. I am continuing the Flor-essence, D3 and C vitamins with her food. NSAID at noon.

She is making loud whistles or snoring sounds all the time. If she is licking or eating it sounds like her tongue is really thick. Night times are much louder. I am sleeping with earplugs part of the night or my arm over my ear so I can sleep. I would never kick her out of our room but she comes out to the living room and sleeps for a while too. She looks tired and when she tries to rest she doesn’t put her head down. She tries to hold it up about 3 inches off the floor. She has a large lump on the side of her neck that feels like a bone. ??

She still enjoys playing downstairs and really likes Frisbee. She likes to eat snow so I’m wondering if that doesn’t feel good to her. I told Trevor a week ago and he seems to talk to her more now. He doesn’t have the closeness that I hoped he would have – the whole “boy and his dog” thing never happened. Avri does more but she is still too young and Sydney isn’t tolerant of young kids. She just wants her butt scratched. :)

I’m thinking I will try the cesium chloride, DMSO and potassium starting Friday. There is no liquid potassium on the market due to the Japan earthquake and nuclear scare. So I will be using tablets instead. Not ideal. We leave for Hawaii in 17 days. I don’t know how Mom feels about taking her and I would feel horrible if I wasn’t here when she passed. I guess I just feel like it’s time to “do something”. She is already suffering by not being able to breathe and sleep. I don’t want to drag it out and I want to give her one last shot. This is all I know to do.

Rob and I dug a hole on top of the hill at the land a week ago today. Kory bought a casket and headstone. I guess I have done what I can to prepare so it’s in God’s hands now. 

It's really amazing that she adjusted to breathing out of her mouth. I was always told dogs can't breath through their mouth - guess what - they can!